OK, I take it back

So yeah, I take back every depressing thing I said a couple days ago in the last post.
I think it was just a little slap in the face reality check. You won't be as good as you once were, but you know what... who the frick cares.
I let the whole situation get out of hand and I got in my own head.

I'm not a raider or a key pusher so after today's vault that got me my 298 helm replacing a 265, I am content with staying at 280 IL until Dragonflight comes out. If I happen to get better stuff from here on out, I will not complain of course, but I won't seek it out.
I took a break for a day to pretty much settle the fuck down. I got super worked up and forgot how much I just enjoy this game. I've never let it get to me as bad I did a few days ago. It made me feel horrible almost to the point of crying... almost.
I'm not gonna stress out about reading how other Demo locks play. I have always learned it on my own, do what I'm comfortable with and try out different things as I run lower stuff. Which is where my Heroic Dungeon crawls come in. Tweak things here and there as I run through stuff that I know I won't die in. It's how I learn. It works for me. And the biggest thing for me... I enjoy it, and that's really what matters right. Now I can't guarantee I'm not gonna have a freakout moment and bitch about the fact that I still suck... Whoa whoa, just stay away from keys then I guess cuz that's where my stress comes in LOL. 

Alright, this screenshot of a convo I had, made my night. Sweet lock, If they only knew my IL was prolly a good 30+ above everyone else in that dungeon LOL. Still, it was nice to hear. After the last boss in dungeons, I usually say thanks and leave party right away to que for my next. This person took the time to give me a compliment after I had already left. Of course I wasn't gonna lie and pretend it was cuz my mad Demo lock skillz LOL. I'd like to think that has something to do with it, but naw... My gear is OP for Heroics, I know this. There was more to the conversation but more of just unrelated chit chat. I am in no position to help someone with Demonology so I wasn't about engage in helping them. It would not benefit them and it would just show how much I do not know everything I should about this spec haha.
I mash buttons bruh! FACT! ...kidding.

Alright my last screenshot here was of my damage meter pretty much throughout the dungeon which is what led to this little lock to thinking I was crushing shit. Not the numbers necessarily just how much of a damage difference I was doing ahead of everyone else. 

I won't lie, I have dabbled in looking on the premade groups for a low key group to jump into, But like I told the lock in our convo... It fuckin scares me. I see a lot of 2 keys but it's for lower Kara and Workshop. Uuummmmmm... nah, I'll pass. With that being said if there was an ingame "Chicken Shit" title... I would have to pop that on Deadskully. Wait it's not her fault... I'm the chicken shit one, not her.

All in all... I am getting better at doing stuff that makes me happy ingame again and not stressin' myself out so much. Thats why we play it right... to have fun, and for a bit I forgot what that was like. I'm not saying I won't ever do another key, but I won't stress about it. 
OK bye!
<3 Skully