Coming back.... but not as hard core as I was before.
Since I stopped playing WoW it always felt like I was missing something. I know that sounds dumb but it really was a game that I spent most of my time playing. It played as a therapeutic outlet for me a lot of times. I used it as an outlet when I wanted to escape reality and shitty life and the things that were happening in it. When I got dumped, it was there for me. Friends I made ingame mattered more to me then they will ever know.
I have a boyfriend (Jeff) now that does not play video games and didn't really want me getting back into the game because he knew how much time I have spent playing it. I have tried to stay away from everything WoW. This includes buying Blizzcon live streams, watching trailers, reading my WoW Blogs, Reading a couple old WoW books that I bought but never read...
But what broke me.... a couple days ago I went on my kindle because I wanted to start reading, not necessarily WoW books but just my kindle books in general, and a recommended book popped up... "Before the Storm" I bought it, and I'm just a couple chapters in and that was it... That's all it took to open the flood gates. Everything came rushing back to me, ALL my toons, my guild with all my gold, the Horde cities I saw everyday and I could give directions to anywhere you asked (I cant even do that in my home town), My friends I left with no notice I was quitting, all my screenshots on my hard drive, all my WoW blogs which I took so much pride in... All the money I spent on Mounts and pets from the Blizzard store. Everything!
Seeing me miss it so much Jeff told me to start playing again....
When I left the game, my built PC died. This ultimately was the deciding factor. I was in need of a quick fix for a computer and didn't care what I was getting. My main goal was to get one that I could use to pay my bills, surf the interwebs, and stream my Hulu and Netflix. I knew I was spending way too much time on WoW and not really having a social life outside of it. Jeff knows how much this game consumed my life, I also don't want him to regret letting me play again. I have set ground rules, that include not gaming all night!, limiting myself to a certain amount of time to play a day, not getting into raiding, Not caring how shitty my gear is... oh geez those are painful rules already. But if I want to keep the boyfriend happy as well, I must do these things. Besides the most things I miss is just getting on my toons, farming, working the Auction house, getting my screenshots, making up stories, just having fun. I was never one that was interested in End game content. I liked to wait till things died down, get better gear and go in and crush it solo... WAIT! NO!!! Im not going to focus on gear now on. dammit RULES!!!!
Alright now to end this entry. In a couple of days I will be getting my prebuild gaming PC, I will just go out and buy a bigger, nicer monitor. I am super excited, the whole download time will be torture for me. But until then, I think I'll take a look at my old screen shots and see if I can make stories out of some of them for now.
Deadskully is coming back Bitches!!!
