Is it starting?

 ...and by "It" I mean my diminishing love of this game.

Ok, maybe diminishing is too strong of a word to describe my current feelings at the moment. For the past week, I have not had the desire to play. Maybe it's because everyone I normally played with are not really playing anymore. Makes me sad because that was never my issue. I never had a problem playing by myself. I actually enjoyed it very much. You didn't have to worry about anyone else holding you up. You didn't have to worry about typing in chat. And I am someone who is aware of other people and when they ask a question in guild chat and no one responds, I know it's dumb, but I feel bad. What's point of being in a guild if no one is gonna respond and there's a bunch of people on. So I've been mainly keeping quiet and not really engaging until asked something specific... what's the point.
But who am I to talk about how people socialize ingame right?
I'm famous for playing hidden and not engaging with people on my friends list. I play how I like, and I know people are just giving me shit but it does make me feel some type of way when I get asked more times then anything "another lock?" I know I shouldn't let it bother me, but it does. You get the ones that say "it's your money, play how you want" So I do. I play hidden so people don't make comments on how much of a loser I am that I only like to play locks.  Alright so they might not even think that way about my choice, but that's how it makes me feel, and it makes me not want to talk to anyone no matter if they are the ones who made comments or not. I always say, I'm a creature of habit, almost to a detriment. Because yes, I'm not branching out and trying to learn to play something different and who knows maybe I'd be a good tank, or healer... yeah I laughed too right there... but anyways, then that goes back to where I say I pay to play what I like, don't give a shit what other people tell you.
When I think about it, It wasn't until I started to regularly play with people that I actually gave a shit about this crap. I'm like, shit just get over it, it's not that serious... and yeah it ain't but I think that's what makes me... well me. I give a shit where I shouldn't. I think about other people, when really I should only be caring about myself and how I feel.
OK then. I'll get better at not caring, and not letting minor ass things get to me. I'm not saying I'm gonna be a bitch, just not gonna have a conniption fit the next time someone says something to me that would have otherwise send me into emo mode. Although I say all of this, I have a really bad feeling that it won't last very long. I would haaate to go back and re-read something only to find that I tried the same thing, but apparently failed miserably. Ah well... that's just me I guess.
But aside from all that socializing crybaby shit, I am finding it hard to stay online for hours at time like I normally can. I usually have a bunch of screenshots lined up for the screen-shot-a-day (yes they usually are not taken THAT day) but I have very little to post. I usually was getting only the ones in raid. Which brings me to my other dilemma. I've been logging off after I start to feel a major headache coming on. It might be the fact that I've been staring at a computer screen every damn day for the past 4 months. General Ed zoom classes, essays, research and powerpoint presentations, and then playing wow, It must me doing something really shitty to my eyesight and brain. Anywhos, the dilemma being that Saturday I logged on for raid, but I quickly wasn't feeling good, I went to lay down instead of going with the guild. Maybe it is a sign that I should slow down on my playing.
We shall see... ok, ok bye!